Day before weigh in

So I have been horrible with my blog. A lot has to do with the fact I am not doing so good with my diet/work out. I think if I didn't blog and admit to it all that I would not have to deal with someone telling me what I should be doing. In all honesty, I need that. Blogging every day is what helps keep me on track. The comments I see everyday is what helps me stay motivated to keep doing the right things. Don't get me wrong I haven't went on a binge and stuffed my face full of food but I haven't focused on what I was eating either. I have not been working out either. However one accomplishment I had this week was I walked my first 5k on Sunday. Yea me! 

Some people asked for updated pictures so this the only one I have.

Most people say they see my loss in my face. Hubby says he sees it all over. I am happy to know that Hubby sees it all over because that is how I would prefer it. Yes my heaviest section is the mid section but I have several other areas i would love to see smaller. I think that is why I am having a hard time seeing the lost because it is all over my body and not just the mid section. 

Last night I went to the Y and did one mile on the TM and i felt pretty good about it. I ran for 1 min int his mile. It took me 20 min to do the mile but I believe If I were to push myself a little more I could do it a little faster. My focus right now is to get where I am running that 11 mile instead of walking it. I know I can do this. It was nice to be back at the Y and have my head back on straight and my priorities put back in the right order. From today on I start working towards my running goals in hopes to complete them on time. 

I weigh in tomorrow and I don't expect and loss, I know I didn't try this week and Honestly wouldn't be surprised if I had a gain. However I feel I am back on track and can move forward and whatever the scale says tomorrow I will brush it under the rug and push on. 

Ok everyone I am needing to clean my kitchen and get the girls some lunch. I will be trying to catch up on some blogs today as well. Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Wk 7 Day 7

I am in a GREAT mood today!  I woke up and weighed in to find out I have lost a total of 7 pounds this week! How exciting is that! I am down a total of 24.7 pounds! I am loving this! Also I went ahead and tried on some pants that I had not been able to fit in and they Fit! This whole time I kept saying, I don't feel skinnier, nor do my clothes fit different. After trying on my pants this morning which were 2 sizes smaller then my other pants I realized that on most days I don't get dressed. I mean, I have cloths on and all, but most of the time I stay in my PJ's and when I get out of my PJ's I put on my work out clothes, or something like that. All of which are elastic band pants. When I do put on my shorts I have noticed them a little big but I just thought it was cause they were stretched out and when I dry them they would shrink back up and be small again. I was completely wrong about that. Now I need to lose another pant size so I have shorts to were, cause I have nothing right now! LOL I could not be any happier about not having shorts that fit!

I have updated all my charts on my page plus added a  new chart about my goals I set yesterday. If you haven't commented yesterday please do! And if you have THANK YOU! Your feed back is actually helping not just myself and other followers but is also helping my friend Crazy Runner. He is working on Episode 11 of his running pod cast and is really looking for more feed back on his episodes, as well as more info/feedback from other runners and non runners. If you haven't listen to his pod cast go  Here and download one. 

I am sorry to all my followers that I also follow, I have been seriously slacking in reading. So today I will be trying to get caught up on all my blogs and hopefully see how you are all doing! I know together we can do this! I love the inspiration and comments and days when I think I can't do this anymore or I feel like giving up I get on here and read some blogs or some past comments left on mine. That alone helps me get through my tough times! What helps you get through the times when you feel like quitting?

Well, gang I am off for now. I need to go clean my kitchen, get the girls there lunch and then get my lunch! After all that put the girls down for nap and then I will be back on to read some Blogs! Hope everyone has a WONDERFUL day!

Wk 7 Day 6

So I am sitting here this morning drinking my coffee and So wishing I did not drink all that wine last night. I decided that this the perfect time to blog! 

I have a few new challenges/goals for my self.

Challenge # 1: Lose a total of 50lbs by my hubbys and I's 6 year anniversary, 9/18/10. Sept 18th is the 1st day of week 16. So I am needing to lose 50lbs in a total of 15 weeks. This ups my over all weekly average goal of 2.88 pounds to 3.34 pounds. I know this is a little harder goal, but I am pretty confident I can do this.

Challenge # 2: Walk a 5k in the next week. I made a deal with Crazy Runner that when he released his next pod cast I would walk a 5k. Well after making that deal he informed me that he will be releasing Episode 11 this weekend. So Since he is doing that I will hold up my end of the deal and walk a 5K as soon as I am able to down load episode 11. 

Challenge # 3: Run a 5k. Ok So Yes I am still trying to accomplish walking a 5k. I am pretty confident I can walk a 5k already and just haven't done it yet. So My goal is to run a 5k by the end of September. That is a little over 2 full months. I am also positive this is plenty of time to achieve this goal. I have to keep reminding myself that ANYONE can run if they try to. I need to stop thinking "I'm not a runner". I was sitting here thinking When I was young (elementary school/Middle school) I could run a mile like it was nothing. I remember I ran 1 mile in 7 min (There were some seconds on that also but I don't remember them). To say the least I don't know If I can run a mile in 15 min right now...LOL.But I will start working towards this goal though.

Challenge # 4: Actually start working out again. I have got in a horrible habit over the last week of not working out. So Back to the Y tonight for a last chance work out before my official weigh in tomorrow. Yes I have been weighing in everyday this week, partially cause I wanted to know when I hit my 20lb mark but also it some how has motivated me more. Everyday I have had a loss! Seeing that everyday, has made it where I don't want to mess up and eat junk.

Ok so there are a few of my challenges I have set for myself in hopes that i can achieve them soon, or by the date I have set. Do you have any challenges/goals you have set for yourself. Challenges and goals are what help me to keep going. If I have something to push forward to I find myself not wanting to fail. Failing is not an option for me. What goals do u have, I love hearing about other peoples new goal, it helps me keep pushing and also gives me ideas for new goals. Do any of you all run? What helps motivate you to run? Why did u all start to run? And if you don't run, Why don't u run? Is there a reason why you don't run? What do you do instead?

Ok, You all have a wonderful day :-)

wk 7 Day...I dunno..lost count, LOL

LOL, I think it it Day 4 of week 7. Wow Week 7 is almost over! I have done really well on my weight loss however today I did not get to the gym AGAIN. Uhg.....there was to much to do today and not a lot of time to do it all. How ever I get a lot done around the house and I am sure that i burned some calories doing that. Like I have said in some many posts before this I am not doing well on hitting my calories. Part of this is not having a lot of healthy foods in the house. I did get to the grocery store tonight so tomorrow I will be back to eating normal. The thing that i fear is since I have been eating so little now to jump back to normal (1200 calories) I am afraid it might actually cause me to gain. I can see where it can become so easy to have an eating disorder. But I want to be healthy and fit, so back to normal tomorrow! But it is past 1am here so I am in need of going to bed. I will blog tomorrow! You all have a wonderful day!

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so I did it!!!!!!!!!!!! I loss 20 pounds!!!!!! I am very excited! I not only loss 20 pounds I have lost 22 pounds! First goal is accomplished! I am thrilled.

See isn't it pretty!?! Okay Yes this not MY IPod it is a stock photo but mine looks just like it! 

I also got some pretty new pink ear buds to match!  How cute! I love it!

However I Forgot my Armband! This is the thing I wanted, well more then the head phones. Oh well I will try to get it in the next few weeks. 

I Have weighed in everyday since Friday and everyday I have loss something! Actually so far I have loss 4 ponds since Friday! Crazy Runner you better get ready for this Friday's run! NO you can't run my miles before....We will wait to Friday to add them all up for a nice long run for you (and you better run on Friday!). I will However up date one of my charts over on the right with Today's date! Ok....I am off for now! I really need to get to the Y to work out and try out my new IPod!

Wk 7 Day 1 & 2

Hello everyone. I am Blogging for Saturday and Sunday. Yes I know it is only Sunday now, but I figured i will combined the 2 days. This morning I woke up not feeling good again. This has been going on for a few days not the only difference about today then the last few days is today i had nausea with it. I have already gotten sick once this morning and I am hoping that is the last time. I am hoping what ever is in me that is making me feel icky that it is gone now. So that is the reason why I am combining the 2 days, I have a feeling i will probably not be eating much today. i will eat when I can and still eat healthy though. Yesterday my calorie intake was only 975 it was very low but I also have not worked out in a few days either. But starting tomorrow I will be starting back at the Y and going hard core. On Friday I weighed in and had lost 3.4 lbs only leaving 2.1 lbs to lose to hit my goal of 20lbs. So being very anxious I have weighed in on Saturday and Today, LOL. Saturday I had lost a whole pound and today I lost another .8 lbs. If you have done the math that means i only need to lose .3lbs to hit my goal! I am thinking that will be tomorrow! I have also said GOODBYE to the 230's! On top of all my goal in my mind I get sooo excited when I get out of the higher numbers. I can't wait to get out of the 220's and so on. Some people asked me why I set the goals I did. The 20 lbs, 50 lbs, 75, lbs, 100lbs, and 115 total. Well the 20 lbs is because every time in the past when I have tried to lose weight I have never hit 20lbs, it has always been 10-15lbs. So to hit the 20 lb mark is/will be a huge accomplishment. The 50lb mark puts me out of the 200's!!!!! I am very much looking forward to that goal because I have not been out of the 200's in 5 years! the 75lb mark will put me at my weight I was when I married my Husband (give or take a few pounds). The 100lb mark is because that was the weight when Matt proposed to me and it seemed like a great mile marker.  And finally the 115lb mark is to put me at the weight I was when I first met Matt and when I was at my healthiest and most active. Of course if I lose a little more I am find with that also..LOL

Ok I am going to get off. You all have a wonderful day. And to all my friends and fellow bloggers I follow I will catch up on our your posts here soon, I promise! 

Wk 6, Day 7

Ok so yesterday was not my best day on this. I did not over eat but I did however under eat. Actually I am finding myself more and more under eating..Hummmm I wonder why this is. Also On top of not eating enough I also did not work out. That will be 3 days in a row...and the sad thing is I can't go tonight or tomorrow because Matt doesn't get off till 6 and the y closes at 7. But That just means Monday I start right back up and push myself a lil harder. I of course will remain active here at home with my girls and working on my basement. So much to do around the house I am sure I will still be burning some calories. Ok Well honestly I am keeping this short today...again, I am sorry. I will talk to you all later, Have a wonderful day!

Nice surprise!

Ok yes I know I have completely missed the middle of the week yet again. I have seemed to fall out of my habit of blogging. Hmmm we can't be having that. So this is my Goal for Week 7, blog everyday! I can tell you that once again I have been keeping up on eating healthy. I have had more days that I have ate under my calories then I have hit my calorie goal. I am finding my self not wanting to eat most days. Not having the want to eat anymore and having to force myself to eat something. The 2 days I have not worked out and for that I feel like a big lazy lump. However I have been very active around the house and re doing our basement. 

Well today is that magical day. I do have to say I was a little scared about to day since I have not worked out in the last 2 days.  I am pleased to announce that I have loss 3.4 lbs! I am so very close to the 20lb mark and I can't wait! All my weight is coming off very slowly but that is ok because it is coming off and I am not putting it on. Right now I am averaging 2.98 lbs per week which is above my goal of 2.88 lbs per week for 40 weeks. I am very happy about this and got a little bit of encouragement this morning. Thank you scale for being on my side this morning. 

I will be blogging later tonight for the official week 6 Day 7 blog. Hope you all have a wonderful day! I know I will!

wk 6, Day 3 & 4

Ok I am very behind on blogging. It honestly has just slipped my mind the last few days. But know I am still eating healthy and I have been working out harder then ever! I am determined to get my Ipod this Friday! I have successfully done the weight loss program in full (On the TM)...TWICE! the first time was for 20 min and that was accomplishment in its self but then last night I did 40 min on the weight loss program! I am sooo excited about and my accomplishments. But honestly I need to keep this short as I am trying to help cook dinner and then I am going to go work out for today. I will try to blog tonight.

Have a good day everyone!

Wk 6, Day 2

So yesterday was very uneventful day. We went to Church in the morning but other then that it was a very lazy day. Matt has been off work this weekend (mini vacation Friday-Monday) and we are trying to just relax for once, instead of running around like a chicken with our heads cut off. yesterday I didn't even work out! But I have noticed a routine I have created and that Sundays I normally don't work out due to Matt's schedule so When Matt asked me yesterday If I was going to go to the Y I decided I needed a rest day of working out since I had been working out the last several days. However just because I did not go to the Y does not mean I was not active...I do have children...LOL.

Ok so for what I ate yesterday

Breakfast
Yogurt
Coffee

Lunch
Chicken strips
Fruit
Cucumber

Dinner
Subway 6 inch oven roasted chicken sandwich

Dessert
Smoothie

Total Calories: 1190 ish give or take a little for the veggies that were on my sandwich.

Like I said I had no work out yesterday but I am getting ready to leave for the Y now. So you all have a wonderful day!

Wk 6, Day 1- My 2 big Accomplishments!

Ok so this post is for yesterday! I am really slacking on this posting at night thing..LOL, Well I am posting in the evening right now but not for today :-). I am very happy with yesterday. We all went to the Y's outdoor water park yesterday afternoon and met up with Matt's parents and Matt's brother Beau and his family. After I helped get the girls lotion up I made my escape to go work out. Yea sure I could have just sat in the nice sunshine and worked on my tan (we all know I need to) but I had the energy to go work out and I was going to take advantage of that energy. I was still able to take advantage of some pool time after I was done working out, that is at least till my oldest daughter fell and hit her head. She got a nice bump on the back of her head as well as a scrape on her arm. My kids are the biggest accident prone kids out there. But Anyways So I experienced a big accomplishment at the Y yesterday.

Normally I would choose to hang out by the pool instead of working out. I am proud of myself for choosing to work out first! My next big accomplishment is After the Y, Matt's parents offered us to all go to CiCi's for dinner. I was hesitant about it at first but I decided I can do it. We had to run home first anyways so while at home I printed the nutritional value for there buffet that way I was not blind sided later when entering my calories for the day. I walked into dinner with a level head knowing I can enjoy dinner with the family and not totally screw up everything I have worked so hard for. This was yet another Huge accomplishment for me, I took responsibility to plan ahead on this and not set my self up for failure. I normally would have just "guessed" how many calories I was eating and gone from there only to find out how badly I did. This was not the case, and for that I am very happy with myself! 

Ok For what I ate today. My calories were low for the day but I do have an excuse for it. I had accidentally added a meal on to my day so when I was looking at my calories for the day (before Dinner) I thought I had about 300 less calories then what I did. Darn I could have had more at CiCi's or I could have had a dessert..Oh well, at least I ate healthy.

Breakfast

Yogurt

Coffee/Creamer

Lunch

Grilled Cheese w/Turkey

---Made with the Best wheat bread I have ever had and with low sodium Provolone cheese and a healthier turkey lunch meat. YUM

Dinner

A BIG Italian Salad

1 bread stick

2 slices of Thin crest Italiano pizza (very yummy, and 1 serving was 2 pieces!)

Total Calories: 969

My work out: I did the elliptical for 20 min on a incline 10 resistance 1. I also rode on the bike for 10 min. Total Miles = 3.65 and Total Calories burned = 378! Also I just realized for the week (Daily Mile goes Monday-Sunday) This is my highest mileage week and highest Calories burned week! My total Miles for the week was just shy of 15 miles and my total calories burned for the week were 1656! I am Very happy to see this, MUCH better then the previous week which was 8 miles and 1034 calories. 

Ok I am off for now, I will blog about today hopefully later tonight. You all have a wonderful day!

Week 5 -- Day 7

Ok so I am just now blogging for yesterday, sorry about that. It has been a little crazy around here the last few days. Matt has 4 days off in a row so we are trying to spend some actual family time together. So today's/yesterdays post is going to be a little short. I did however lose 1 lb! And that I am excited about! I am still on my goal, 115lbs in 40 weeks averages about 2.88 lbs per week and I am currently at 2.9lbs per week. Ok on to what I ate.

Breakfast

Yogurt

Lunch

Corn Flake chicken Strips

Strawberries

Dinner

BBQ pork loin

Broccoli

Mashed potatoes

Snack

Strawberries

Total Calories: 1000 (yes I know I have been low)

My Work out: Yesterday I did shorter work outs but more intensity to them. I did the Elliptical for 10min and the bike for 10 min. Total Miles was 3.2 and total calories burned was 270!

Week 5 -- Day 6

So tomorrow is the day! I am a little nervous because I did weigh my self on Wednesday and I had gained .5 lbs. (I weighed before I went to the Dr cause I knew I would weigh in when I got there and I did not want to be blind sided...). But Even if I do gain I know this particular week mother nature is not on my side...If you get what I mean. So Next week will be better. In order to stay on my goal of 115lbs in 40 weeks I will need to lose at least 1 lb any thing less and I will be off my goal, and a gain....well that just won't be good. So my fingers are crossed that tomorrows loss will be at least 1 lb (if not more..lol). 

Ok On to what I ate today

Breakfast

Yogurt

Coffee

Lunch

Turkey w/cheese

Cucumber

Strawberries and cherries

Snack

Almond Butter On Wheat bread

Dinner

Slow-cooker Salsa Chicken (very good)

Brown Rice

Crescent

Total Calories: 1007

The Work Out: Today I did a little of everything knowing I had a small gain as of Wednesday. I did the weight loss program on the elliptical for 20 min! I am very happy about this because when I first started the elliptical I could not do the weight loss program on it! i then rode the bike for 10 min and then walked on the TM for 15 min. On the TM i tried the weight loss program also but was not as successful as i was on the elliptical. I have fairly short legs so when It jumps up in speed I have a hard time keeping up...plus I am out of shape..LOL. But I kept it on the program and when ever it tried to jump in speed I just lowered it back down...I did however do just fine with all the inclines it did. Total miles today = 4.45! Total Calories burned = 491! I am very happy with these results! I am also going to lift some weights tonight cause it has been a few days.

Ok Everyone you have a wonderful night! I will blog tomorrow night but in the morning I will update my chart and tracker. Depending if it is a loss or gain depends on how fast it gets updated. If I gain I have an agreement with Crazyrunner to run/walk double the miles I gain, in return he runs 1 mile for every pound I lose...Really hope he's running tomorrow and not me..LOL.

Awards

I feel so honored to receive an award! Honestly This is not my first but the first that I have actually understood what it meant to have an award..LOL. I am still fairly new to this whole blog thing so bare with me and i will get through all of this.LOL

Ok in order to receive this award I have to do 3 things so here they are :-)

1). Thanks the recipient: That would be Ali over at The scales say what?! Ali you are amazing! I love your blog because it is always "up beat" and positive. Even when you are not being positive it is positive to me cause it lets me know that there are others out there. So THANK YOU!

2).  Link back the giver: LOL I did this above but here ya go :-) Check Her out!

3). Reveal 10 things:

Wow this one is a little harder, but then I was thinking there is a lot you all might not know about me....so here we go.

1). I play the Flute and Have played it since I was in 5th Grade. I say 1st chair through high school and even played in a few honor bands.

2). I have moved 18 times, Lived in 2 different states and in 4 different cities 3 of which were in Colorado and the other was here in Kansas.

3). I have lived back in KS for a year and a half and still have my CO drivers lic.

4). I absolutely Love to Snow Ski and I am fairly good at it. Was trying to learn how to board at one point.

5). I am very short! I am 60inches (5 foot) and I am married to a man who is 6'3" LOL

6). I change my hairstyle almost as often as I change clothes..LOL. I am getting better at this because of lack of money. But I love changing the cut and color of my hair all the time.

7). I actually Love my facial features! I hate my body..LOL. God gave me Beautiful Skin, eyes and hair. I am very lucky that I don't break out to much.

8). My Favorite food is Mexican and could easily eat it every day!

9). I Love to throw pottery! I discovered this talent of mine while living in CO this last time and completely fell in love with it! I have a dream to own my own studio someday!

AND

10). I love to travel (well who doesn't). My Dream is tour all of Europe! I love Europe and all the history it holds! I will do this some day! It is on my Bucket list :-).

Ok now I get to have fun and Give this out to 3 other bloggers :-). Yes Ali I agree this is a very hard decision!

I chose
1). Slender Swan (to be) Because she is the reason I started to blog in the first place! Thanks! What did I do before blogging..LOL

2). My Adventure in obtaining a new life I chose Danielle because she started her Diet the same day I did and she has done wonderful on it! She inspires me to try harder!

3). ...Like a Fat Kid Loves Cake I absolutely love reading her blogs! So real! So true! Nothing sugar coated (well maybe the cake lol). But She says exactly how she feels and she tries very hard! Love her!

Ok so Check all these blogs out because these are a few that I follow daily that help inspire me to keep going! You all have a wonderful night!

Week 5 Day 5

Ok I have decided to revert back to the way I use to blog. I did so much better when I was blogging every night and writing what I was eating. In some weird way it helped keep me be more accountable, even though I was tracking it all still in sparkpeople.com. I had a few days this last week where it was really hard to continue with this all and I wanted to give up, but I didn't :-). Thank you to everyone who stood bye me and are still reading my blog. I am a moody person sometimes (mostly once a month..LOL).

Today I Had an awesome day! I wasn't planning on doing anything other then trying to work on our basement. But at 9am I got a call from the Doctors office who was able to squeeze me in at 11am today instead of waiting till the 13th, I quickly snatched it up. On my way to the Doctors office Mandi (My sister in-law) text me and asked if I could help her for a couple of hours that afternoon. I said of course! That had many benefits, I love going over there and spending time with them and my girls absolutely LOVE going over there! My girls were daycared there for a while when I was working and they built many friendships but when I stopped working they of course stopped going to daycare. So any chance we are able we try to go over there. Being I was on the east side of town for my Doctors appointment it made since to just go over there when we were done running our errands. I didn't get home till about 6:30 and of course needed to start dinner. Honestly after that I have done nothing! LOL. Oh wait I did go work out :-)!

Ok so here is what I ate today

Breakfast
Yogurt
Coffee

Lunch
Sushi, California rolls
Salad
Fruit

Dinner
Taco Salad
Small burrito

Total calories: around 1100 (I don't have the exact number because Some things I don't have the exact calories for and had to use what was in the system already)

My Work out: Ok first let me start off by saying I have been waking up every morning for the last month with a stiff neck. I thought maybe it was my pillows but yesterday I woke up with one and it still has yet to go away, matter of fact today it hurts more. Everyone is suggesting I am doing something as I am working out. I don't know exactly but just in case I watched myself tonight. I did the elliptical for 15 min and went exactly 1 mile and burned 150 calories. I then walked on the TM for about 10 min (I was worn out because I have not been working out as much) I walked .45 miles and burned about 100 calories :-). I am  happy that did something tonight cause I was leaning towards staying at home and playing a game with my girls.

Ok Everyone that is about it. I hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Skillet - "Monster"

Ok So i am going to have several posts tonight. But what better way to start with My new song! In the mist of looking for some new workout music it dawned on me how much I love Skillet! Skillet's music has an awesome beat and great lyrics! With that being said I had a hard time picking just one song that I felt relates to me the most right now. But I think I have decided (not to say it won't change tomorrow..LOL I had a few to chose from...maybe a song every day..who knows).

Week 5 Day 3 and 4

So The last few days have been kind of blah days. I was able to get a lot of "fun" things to eat that are healthy. most of it is veggies and such but I did get a new type of bread that I LOVE! I am finding my "want" again to keep on going. I have been continued to eating healthy and work out almost everyday. I am writing this in hopes to get a little energy in me that way when hubby gets home it will be easier to go work out instead of hanging out at home with him. Although I love to hang at home with him I need to get to the Y. I need some suggestions on music to download. No I don't have my Ipod yet but I am hoping to get it soon (maybe by next friday). So I need ideas of what type of music to put on it...I need good songs to work out to. Any Suggestions?

Ok sorry for the short blog tonight and the lack of blogs lately I will try to blog tomorrow night about tomorrow. Have a good night everyone!

Week 5 -- Day 1 and 2

So I realized late last night that I forgot to blog for Saturday so I am attaching it on to Sundays. Yesterday Was the 4th of July and we did absolutely nothing! It was nice. we had a quiet family day around the house and grilled some BBQ Chicken last night. The last few days I have done good with my calories. Saturday was a little high about 1300 calories and Sunday was a little low about 900 calories. I was able to make it to the Y on Saturday but not on Sunday. I will be going today for sure though. Today is my first day off Phentermine so I am a little curious to see how I do. I know I will have the chance to go back on it on the 13th. But in all honesty I am not to sure I want to go back on phentermine. Towards the end of being on the pill it seemed like it was not working like it use too. So we will see if it was working these next few days as I am off of it or if my body was use to it. Depending on that may depend on what the Dr recommends on the 13th.

One thing I have noticed with my diet and everything is its losing its shine. You know when you buy something brand new and you are so excited about it but over time it is just a part of your life, Like a car. When you buy a brand new car it is so shiny and pretty no dings or scuffs. But as time goes buy it loses a little bit of its shine and the car itself is just not as new and exciting to you. Sometimes giving it a good buff job will help bring that shine back into a car allowing you to get some of that excitement back. Well, I need a good buff job, lol. I am at a point that I do feel I struggle more now to eat right and work out. I have lost most the feeling I had 1 week ago when it was a want to go work out and be healthy. I know this is part of a stage and I can push through it. But I tell you, this is difficult! I am just going to keep on trying and push through this, I will keep you updated :-).

Ok I am off for now. You all have a wonderful day!

Week 4 -- Day 7

So It just dawned on me I never blogged about yesterday! So I am going to make this short cause I want to tell you about it but I need to get ready to go work out before the y closes.

Yesterday was a fairly good day on my food. I was a little under on my calories but not to bad but however I did not make it to the Y to work out. Last night I spent most my night working on our menu and making our grocery list. How ever I still ended up spending a lot of money at the store I should not have. I get real torn on the groceries and what I should do as a mother and a wife. This week we really had no extra money for groceries because the first of the month bills are always very high. However we also did not have a lot of food in the house and for the last few days we had to get creative with what we had. As a mom my priority is my family and my girls, making sure they have food on the table everyday is important to me. I prefer to make sure my kids eat a balance meal daily also because I do not want them to turn out like there mother (over weight). The wife in me who does our families budget knows we are behind on some bills and new it was going to be tight for a while in order to get caught up. That part of me feels bad for how much I spent at the store but the other part gets happy when I can open my fridge and grab a fresh veggie or fruit and be able to make a good dinner for our family to eat. it is a good feeling knowing that there is food in the fridge and it is not all junk. It is not such a good feeling trying to figure out how to pay some bills...Uhg.

Anyways that is about it from yesterday. I will blog more tonight when for today. Hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Week 4 -- Day 6

So yesterday I did horrible on my food intake. I ate hardly anything. my total calorie intake was less then 700 calories. I had missed breakfast and ate a low calorie lunch along with my dinner. I had no idea my calorie intake was so low till it was to late in the evening. So today I am going to try to do better on my calories. I was able to make it to the Y last night. Although I really had to push myself to go. It was really hard to find the motivation to go. After I got the I decided since I was there I was going to give it my all. I hopped on to the elliptical and i normally have it set at a 10 incline and a 1 resistance. Well I was noticing it didn't feel like I was giving it my all, so I decided to up the resistance to 5 and even though at the moment it didn't feel much different I do however feel it today. Not only did I change those things but i also forced my self to go faster then I normally do. When I was done with the elliptical i hopped on the TM and did a 20 min walk on it. I am happy about my work out last night.

So the plus side of me blogging in the morning about the day before is I weighed in this morning and you all would normally have to wait till tonight to find out the results. But now you don't :-). I am happy to announce I lost 2.8 lbs still keeping me on track for my overall goals.

Ok that is about it. You all have a wonderful day!

The Scales say What!

So this post is because I was reading Ali's blog yesterday and she told the story of when she first became aware of her weight and what made her become aware of her weight. She asked everyone to share there stories so here I am going to share mine.

I have 2 times in my life that it was put in my face I was not the skinniest. The first time was middle school and i was in the 7th grade. I have always been a little over weight but nothing like I am today. My mom had just bought me a new pair of black jeans that she had found for fairly inexpensive. When she gave them to me i noticed the size on them were a size 5! At the time I was about a size 10-12. I never thought I could fit into them nut after I tried them on I was surprise to see that they fit! I proudly wore them to school in excitement that they were such a small size. A group of us were walking in from out doors and there was a teacher in the group with us. Some how we got on the conversation of pant sizes and i proudly announced that i was wearing a size 5! The teacher looked over at me and without hesitation said that those are probably labeled wrong cause there was no way those were a size 5! I quickly started to doubt myself and wonder why it was noticeable that these were not a size 5! Yes they probably were labeled incorrectly but for a day till that moment I felt good about myself!

The other thing I remembered was in 11th grade. We had just moved to Pagosa Springs, CO and I was trying so hard to fit in. I automatically fit in with the band people but I longed to be "popular". I had never been popular and actually was mad fun most of my life. Up till high school I had issues with my speech and I my ability to say my "R's". Well my name being Jennifer made it difficult to say so I shortened it to Jenni or Jen. But back to the subject I was trying so hard to fit in and be popular I tried out for cheer leading and made it! How exciting was that! When we lived in KS my best friend was a cheerleader and I always wanted to be one also but never made the team there. The team had already ordered there new uniforms but we (me and another girl who joined late) were able to use some older uniforms. There were 2 choices to chose from. One was my size and the other one was a little a lot bigger then the first one. Well the other girl who joined late with me was about the same size as me but maybe at the time a little bigger. Well our coach being the person she was gave the smaller one to the other girl and I got the bigger uniform. When I questioned her she basically said I was bigger and that the one she gave me would fit just fine. Well it didn't! It was to big and the skirt was way to long. My mom being the wonderful woman she is altered my skirt in length and a little bit in size that way I did not feel like such an out cast. I remember my dad coming up to the school and confronting my coach about the whole thing (that is my dad, very protective of his family and will do anything for us).  This whole thing has always been stuck in my head. The words of me being bigger and at that then being the biggest on the team hurt way more then I could ever imagine. Even though my parents were amazing and did all the things they did for me I don't know if they ever knew how much I started to doubt my self and my weight at that point in my life. From that moment on it seemed like I always struggled and never really was happy about my weight.

So there you have it, my 2 stories that made me realize my weight and how hurtful things can be in life and stick with you for longer then you ever thought.

Week 4 -- Day 5

Yesterday was a GREAT day! Mid Afternoon I got online to look up the time our movie started and found out they changed what was showing on each scree. Before Toy Story 3 was paired with Eclipse and Grown Ups and Karate Kid was paired on the other Screen. Our point of going to see a movie was to see Toy Story 3 as a family even though we had NO desire to watch Eclipse. Well when I got online yesterday I was happy to see that they changed it where Eclipse was paired with another movie and we had Toy Story 3 and Grown Ups. 2 movies Matt and I were wanting to see! So we watched both movies and the girls were great! They did not act up to much (not more then a typical 4 & 3 year old would). However, I did manage to eat a whole bag of popcorn all by myself..ewwwww. Luckily it was 94% fat free, but still not healthy.

I met with My Dietitian this morning to get some tips on how to eat healthier and how to do it cheap. She was real encouraging, she told me that I am on the right track with my 1200 calories. She also said she understands that me eating 900 calories someday is not going to hurt me and she understood how it happens. Phentermine makes it where I don't want to eat and makes it hard to fill my calories some days. No this is not an excuse to eat only 900 calories but a way for me not to beat my self up for only eating 900 calories when it does happen. She explained more of the sodium intake and what to look for in foods. I am Very excited about all the knowledge I have gained today and am looking forward to applying every thing immediately. The only thing she said to me that I did not care for was that I needed to be active/working out everyday for a min of 60 minutes. But she said the days I am not at the Y (5 days a week I go to the Y) I needed to make sure I am more active those days. So I have a few new goals. Making sure I hit the 60 min a day and following her suggestions on food and eating! I will be starting everything today but not to sure how successful I will be on the food till I am able to go grocery shopping.

Ok so on to yesterdays food. it could have been worst then what it was considering I ate a whole bag of popcorn. I had 1274 in calories. I did not work out yesterday so I will make sure I will get to the Y today.

Ok Everyone you have a great day!